4 days to go - 1 year since Doug proposed

Doug proposed one year ago today out in Big Sur while hiking through the mountains. It is hard to believe it has been a year already and that our wedding is this weekend and at the same time - I guess a lot has happened between now and then. It still cracks me up he proposed on Cinco de Mayo - I guess I am part Mexican so it works out.

Man, I am feeling it today. I did alright most of the day. Walking around with my head in the clouds and then about 10 minutes ago I hit a wall. I think all these late nights, restless sleeping patterns, and early mornings are getting to me. I got quite a bit accomplished today. Talked to the videographer who is super sweet. It is a woman which is awesome. She apparently used to shoot for the news so she sounds like she is going to be totally on it, which I love. My natural wooden altar got the axe today when I spoke with the florist. I had mentioned that we couldn't have anything stake into the ground at the gardens when I asked for the altar, but apparently they built it that way anyways. So now we can't use it. So they are refunding my money. I have way too many other things to worry about than let this upset me. I wanted to save a few bucks here and there anyways so it works out. I am just a bit bummed because it would have been gorgeous. Now I don't have anything special about the ceremony decor. In fact, I have no ceremony decor now. Which kinda sucks actually. Maybe I will email amanda and see what we can do with that 300 bucks for the ceremony space. I sent the hotel guest bags off with Brandon today, who is leaving tomorrow for STL. The first of the group to head out. I am really looking forward to everything being done and relaxing in my hotel room. Hitting the pool even. I bought several swimsuits online and will be returning what I don't like. I needed something for the honeymoon!

We stopped in at Kung Fu today to say bye today. Blackcoated beginner class. Sifu was so kind and is going to allow us to take Tai Chi classes as a gift. I have been wanting to try it. It is going to be hard with the schedule but I am excited to try and make it work! As we were leaving Ms Donnie was so sweet - wishing us the best and crying - she made me cry too! She is so sweet. I wish she could make it to the wedding. It would be so special to have her there, smiling at us. Her smile always makes me feel great! She has this amazing way of making you feel great. I am definitely going to miss the dojo while we are away. I think it will be fun to practice while on the honeymoon. You can't beat doing forms on the beach!